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Age: 45
Gender: Male
Location: I use to be at Blackfoot Idaho

I have a life time of stories to tell. I have been clean for 11 years now. I started using drugs at 15 smoking pot, hash cocaine, all kinds of speed pills, meth, then at 18 I started using the needle. By the time I was 32 I had moved, checked myself in to rehab, and even worked at my jobs 7 days a week to get away from meth. There was a time that I went 5 years, being clean, but at 32 I got back into it faster and harder than ever. I started cooking meth and within 2 years I had lost my 2 boys, my family, and even my friends stayed away. I was so sick and tired of being tired and hurting people that I would hope that I would get arrested. That prey came on 10-12-97 in Pocatello, Idaho. When they arrested me and put me in the cop car I had a feeling come over me that it is over I was relieved. I was sent to prison for 7 years and did 3, it was the best thing that could of happened to me. 2 years in prison I was just getting over the craving of meth it was good that I got 3 years. I used every reason for using, what happened to me as a kid, being in foster homes for 4 years, and losing my brothers and sisters. I could go on and on but when the smoke clears it was the choice I made. Even after I did my 3 years in prison and 2 years on parole I still felt that I owed Idaho for the trouble I had caused. I ended up being a informant for the Idaho State Police and ATF on one case that lasted 15m it took up a great deal of my time, I was in to this about 6m and I got a phone call the day that I was going to pick up my boy he was huffing air freshener. He died in Blackfoot; he was 16 years old. I went on to finish the case. Police and ATF ended up arresting a few people in 3 different counties and led to other drug arrests. I had to leave the state that I love so much. My other son how is 18 now. I have learned that there is a lot of police officers and Idaho people that care. I have a lot more that I could tell but I'll leave it at this, remember if you are doing drugs you have to want the help, and there are Idahoans that well help. I hope that Idaho has forgiven me. I miss Idaho; even though I am not there Idaho is my home. I well help in any way I can.

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